We hear a song or read a story & the good feelings we get don't remain inside of us. We are either anticipating them, or we've had them & they are gone. We never experience them as now... I'm writing a story about a little girl who discovers a cave where there is a lasting now...
The Gift of Asher Lev, p. 99

Monday, August 20, 2012

Even though it looks like an obstacle, it’s probably an opportunity.

This summer has been the most unique summer I’ve ever experienced, aside perhaps from the summer I spent in a different culture.  I say that because one would think that replacing a small little ligament in a knee would be a relatively simple fix.  It was a simple fix… a quick surgery and a textbook recovery. What I could never have imagined is how upside down living and rehabilitating this little ligament could be.  Here are a few of the big things that have been a challenge:

-   At first, literally moving.  A trip up 8 – 10 stairs would tire me to the point of napping.  Then it was bending, getting that range of motion to what my other knee is capable.  I’m still working on that, but it’s better every day.  Now, it's strength training in the muscles around my ACL. Stairs still pose a mighty obstacle as I’ve begun overcompensating in various ways to make up for the weakness in the muscles surround this little ligament.

-   Secondly, actually moving.  My lease was up in July, as was my former roommate’s planned stay in Stevens Point.  So, just two weeks after my surgery, a new lease and a new roommate started to be a part of my life. I’ve loved everything about this new place and the new roommate, but I tell ya what… organizing, unpacking, decorating, shopping, assemblying and repurposing is hard work without a recent surgery! It’s taken at least twice as long and I’m still not settled to the desired level. 

-   Have I mentioned that my business office moved along with my physical address? Again, restructuring, organizing, finding, assemblying, unpacking… with insurance files and leads.  It’s all been a challenge.

Of course, there have been bright spots amidst the challenges.

-    My younger brother loves to pack and unpack things into a van and trailer.  This man not only took everything I own down a flight of stairs to our van, but up another flight of stairs at my new place. Spending this time with Cody (and having his help!) has made this move possible and 3,000 times more fun.

-   Time to relax.  I’ve really had to slow down this summer physically.  I haven’t been biking, slacklining or playing ultimate or doing any sort of physical exertion beyond stair-climbing. This is much harder than it looks or sounds.  At first, it sounded like a vacation of sorts, until exhausting 3x a week physical therapy and daily leg-strengthening exercises were added to the routine.  At times, this is frustrating, but I’ve also been trying to see it as an opportunity for rest, recuperation, and retooling. I’ve read a lot, learned a lot about the Milwaukee Brewers (and baseball in general – fascinating), and got to vacation and reconnect with friends… all at a slower pace, mind you. These are huge blessings behind what was disguised as an obstacle.

So, this summer has felt like no other.  In some ways, I feel like I’m in a different culture because of the new experiences I’ve faced! I’m more thoughtful about a lot of what I do (mostly because every step is an opportunity to reinjure myself) and I’m excited about what the fall will bring as far as my schedule goes. Again, there will be some new experiences and chances to explore more of life and what it means to be Jaime in it.

PS – one of my goals is more frequent posts here so stay tuned.